Just as my blessings come with battles, my afters flow from befores. Before, I am BG, No. 42, a daddy's girl from Texas. Before, I am hopeful, more than ever, with a future so bright it burns my eyes. I'm on my way to Russia, a place I've called my second home. For eight seasons I've played there, won there, lived there for long stretches, greeted the schoolgirl fans always lined up near my locker room. Til go back now and grind my way to playoffs, earn this last round of cash for my family. I'll finish strong, with dignity, the way Pops taught me to. Before, I have no clue what's coming … A short time later and a world away, I wake up in an after I'd wish on no one. My horror begins in a land I thought I knew, on a trip I wish I hadn't taken. It's the memory of what I left behind and the gut-wrenching truths I encountered. It's the diary of my heartaches, my regrets, my questions about what a Black life is worth. It's my gratitude to the millions who rallied for my rescue. It's how I endured a nightmare, the most frightening ordeal of my life. Audit's the story of us, of Relic and me, and how our love finally brought me home.